Moving On?

It's been a year since you were taken away and we are all still coming to terms with your passing. On Sunday I went and placed flowers by your tree along with your husband and two daughters.

This last twelve months has seen moods swing from us all, but in standing together we have been able to correct or behaviour and support each other. Others have not been around to offer support, but I guess you would have expect as much!

We have become closer as a group as a result of your passing and relationships that were good are now excellent. I still make my regualer phone calls, but this time it is not to speak to you but hopefully to speak as you did when supporting your girls.

I miss you, not just for the happy times but also for the sad ones. For the fact that with you gone I have a whole inside me. When my children ask about my family I have no reference point, I cannot find the things they seek from Google and so they will go without the knowledge that you kept.

Your husband seems to have found a balance, his loss is greater than mine, his challenges are different in coping with the three children, his motivation differs to . I think that he still crys each day, but now it is not for as long. The fact of living means that he has had to face things head on and try and work as "normal" for the sake of your son.