Circle of Life
A few hours ago my niece gave birth to her second son.
This time she went through the whole pregnacy without her mother to help and advise when needed. This time she will not have a pile of new knitted clothes. Her dad has done his best, but as I know at times a girl needs her mum and this is one. On a personal front rather than updates on the whole process all I have had is short messages with little detail, its a man thing. I am sure that once the new mother has had some sleep I can talk with her and get the details but at present all I know is that she had another son at five this morning.
This is another one of the many events that should have been a very happy one and yet is deflated by the fact that my sister is it not here to share and co-ordinate it. People said that over time things get better, well eighteen months almost to the day and if anything her going is more pronounced rather than less. We have tried not to talk about her parting, others have shown their true colours in fading from the scene. I am starting to understand what my partner feels having lost her mother nearly 15 years ago.
This time she went through the whole pregnacy without her mother to help and advise when needed. This time she will not have a pile of new knitted clothes. Her dad has done his best, but as I know at times a girl needs her mum and this is one. On a personal front rather than updates on the whole process all I have had is short messages with little detail, its a man thing. I am sure that once the new mother has had some sleep I can talk with her and get the details but at present all I know is that she had another son at five this morning.
This is another one of the many events that should have been a very happy one and yet is deflated by the fact that my sister is it not here to share and co-ordinate it. People said that over time things get better, well eighteen months almost to the day and if anything her going is more pronounced rather than less. We have tried not to talk about her parting, others have shown their true colours in fading from the scene. I am starting to understand what my partner feels having lost her mother nearly 15 years ago.

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Everyday i think of her and Everyday it seems not real
Everyday i go over what has passed us by
Everyday i still do cry
Everyday i cant believe
Everyday this should not be
Everyday i try my best
Everyday i fail that test
Everyday i know that my children have mothers needs
Everyday i know i just dont succed
Everyday i try my best
Everyday will last forever
Everyday my love grows stronger
Everyday will never finish
Everyday my children accomplish
Another day will follow this
Again i will try to be the best
Forever autumn.......
Sunday was a "loverly day " as Ricky would have said . She would have been in her element with two young gran children and 3 gorgous girls and good friends . I know she was with us on that day and would want me to thank everyone for making it special . The new bridge has opened here a part of life that Ricky saw begin but not finished ..
We all love her deeply and miss her smile and laugh so much ...
Rickys husband still
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